Aaj phir jeenay ki tamanna hai… (we will never live it again…)

Waheeda Rehman in the song, Aaj phir jeenay ki tamanna hai
Waheeda Rehman in the song, Aaj phir jeenay ki tamanna hai
With the hand fading away in a distant view through the window and a jerk she comes back to the life around. The bus has stopped. All passengers get off the bus to have a cup of tea at a sub-terminal. She sits down to people watch in the garden of the restaurant. There is a small cafeteria too. The recorder there plays a famous hindi song in the most beautiful female voice:
Aaj phir jeenay ki tamanna hai, Aaj phir marnay ka iraada hai
Years back when she listened to this song it did not bring her any significant thought. But today it catches her attention as she realizes how intensified desire is hidden in it for a passion to live out of one’s own will and choice; to awaken in one’s self a ‘vibrational being’. The feelings in the melodious song remind her a statement by Adlai Stevenson, “It is not the years in your life but the life in your years that counts.” She thinks how long are we here to live? A few years? And we continue to shrink that short life span by putting unnecessary restrictions on it sometimes for our own selves and many a times for others. It again rings in her ears:
Kaanton se kheench ke yeh aanchal, Tor ke bandhan baandhi paayal
Koi na roko dil ki uraan ko,
dil woh chalaa; ha ha haa haa haa haa
Aaj phir jeenay ki tamanna hai, Aaj phir marnay ka iraada hai

To deny a person a right to live her/his life to its full is unforgivable. Its hard to think how much a person’s soul is wounded when you do this to her/him. When one breaks constructed and unnecessary traditions and restrictions to live her/his life to its full, people stand in the way, throw stones, put hurdles in the way but one has to bull her/his way through it and once in a life we just want to do it our way for it will complete who we are. If we want our passions around us, sometimes we have to do it the hard way but we have to for our heart goes with it.
Apnay he bas mein nahin main, Dil hai kahin tau hun kahin main
Jaane kya paa ke meri zindagi ne,
Hans ker kaha; ha ha haa haa haa
Aaj phir jeenay ki tamanna hai, Aaj phir marnay ka iraada hai
When one comes out of that cocoon of oppression and barriers, one is overwhelmed to see her/his boundaries that stretch towards unlimited limits and she/he feels that the joy of achieving one’s personal freedom is the most wonderful thing in the world. Not only we long for this life of ours but the life once denied to us itself smiles back at us for it is this life which is waiting for us. You are just required to show courage to go and live it.
Main hun ghubaar ya tufaan hun, Koi bataaye main kahaan hun
Dar hai safar mein kahin kho na jaaun main
Rasta naya; aa..aa..aaa….
Aaj phir jeenay ki tamanna hai, Aaj phir marnay ka iraada hai
Sometimes there exists such a passion that one is oblivious of the fact what one is, where one is. In actuality one has dived deep into her/his inner space where she/he has a vitality, a force, a will to be ‘herself’/ ‘himself’. With rarely achieved freedom there comes fear too. Never experiencing such openness and vastness of horizon puts fear in the heart because people tell us about risks and create hurdles in our path for what we have managed to achieve they still cannot think of it. We have to give up any fear of failure and have to walk with our head held high. All of us know that life is hard but we need to understand that it smiles at us too. We want to open the window of opportunity to colourful, fulfilling, quality life. Its only that we get scared for we have never been trained to enjoy pleasure and embrace happiness. But the point is why people make someone think she/he may face a loss or difficulty after living for herself/himself. Why can’t they make them feel that a person gets everything in life after she/he goes with their wills. Such happiness and satisfaction it is in following the nobler passions of heart and beautiful thoughts of mind that after this if there is any hardship; its worth it.
Kal ke andheron se nikal ke, Dekha hai aankhein maltay maltay
Phool hi phool zindagi bahaar hai
Teh kar liya; aa…aa…aaa
Aaj phir jeenay ki tamanna hai, Aaj phir marnay ka iraada hai
One cannot wait passively for something to happen in her/his life. Its only after following our heart that we come to enjoy the light of our pure and sweetest passions. We leave behind the darkness of false fears and try to live just for once at least. It’s the overcoming of our fears instilled by innumerable forces around that make the life clear before our eyes and we realize “Life is Beautiful”. At that time we have to seize the moment for it will never tick back.
Looking at a boy who sips his last drop of tea she thinks one would never want to be dead while still alive, one would never like to put herself/himself in an endless misery which has no compensation. The YOU moment; the magnificent composition of you, your faith and the cosmic energies comes but once, when your heart, mind and soul are in harmony with each other. Grab the moment before it is lost. Once lost you are able to survive but “there remains so less of you afterwards”.
In struggle of responding to your moment, respect all those beautiful souls who light up your soul and make your heart smile. Love them if they have enriched your life and opened your heart in ways you would never have dreamt of for they are your greatest source of inspiration.
She was just thinking of all those souls when the bus blew the horn…
Song: Aaj phir jeenay ki
Movie: Guide
Language: Hindi
Year: 1965
Music Director: S.D. Burman
Singer: Lata Mangeshkar
Lyricist: Shailendra